date: Sunday, March 13, 2005 @ 8:12 pm
title: Zhi Han..
Actually for once..
I find my life more interesting than others..
Okie.. not to compare, but by looking at them and how they spend their life.
I think my life is full of adventures..
It's like a revelation to me. Yeeha!!
It's like a crash course of the experience of a lousy life, den the dark ages and finally all the crazy life experiences, which some might not even have..
I had finished a crash course of really putting God as your priority and He messed it up to discipline me for good, so as to prepare me for the next season.
Let me see..
Evaluation period.
The weeks of Contemplating of Putting which JCs as my first three months...
I forego the choice of following my secondary school friends and went to SRJC to do something there. Something that even myself was also unsure of.
The weeks of SanPleg...
Decided to mark out SanPleg destiny and gel with the OG. Made good buddies with them. Got to know everyone well and had loads of fun with them. Amazing opened up my introvert-self.
The weeks of Subject Selection...
Sought Him and decided to put my trust in Him, as David did when he was facing Golith, placed all his faith in that slingshot. I placed my faith in that slingshot and took up history..
The weeks of 1A04...
A new environment.. a new friends to make. Losing abit of my passionate SanPlegh. Abit depressed by a person commenting me as a flirt!!! Okie.. I forgave her, but she dun accept my apology. Awwwww.. poor Zhi Han.
The weeks of Cederians..
Putting a marist with a cederian equals to social sucide. I didn't care. They are great people, who really know how to kill time. That's for sure. Meet someone wonderful and thru her met the rest. Grool gals.
The weeks of RocMoc..
Exposed myself to the possibility of killing my body. Pushing myself over board. Workout like a fool, but enjoyed the torment very much. With the satisfaction of reaching the summit. Made friends with a bunch of Rockclimbing fanatics.
The weeks of Meeting old primary School Friends..
Never meet for like 4 years and found out that everyone looks the same. The same look and the same attitude. Haha..
The weeks of Choir..
Madam Tan! my pastor's friend. Ha! also my friend as well.. I thought that I will never ever see her again, but guess again.. I made her just like that and I was automatically enrolled into choir. The people in choir are crazy and slacky.. All the songs are booooooooooo!!! So dry and rusty.. But had a fair share of fun and laughter..
The day of Guitar..
Joined Guitar CCA and met Weifen! And on the same day, got to know BERrrr better as well. Plus since that day, I luv to strum Guitar more than ever, thus fell in love with.... -hint hint- :)
The week of flu..
I was ill for the first time for Year 2005. It was also the week of the CNY banner competition which we reign 3rd champion.. Yeeha! The guys did nothing and gals did all the job. Ha! can't forget it. Ever..
The week of History project..
I was Maria Antoinette. Ha! Asking a boy to act as a mature lady.. forget it! ha! Who were my members? Er... Aniza, Izyan, Jia Li, Bi Ru and me.. Haha!! It was the most ridiculous thing I ever did in my life.. And we won chocolate for the best play. Of course ma.. 2 groups only.
The week of Transition..
Pastor was coming back soon..
Church was going thru some tough time and I was inevitably affected. Spiritual attacks.. BG relationship was lurking into the mist of every person. Almost everyone.. and I, by default, got attacked first den God spoke about it.. Bla bla bla..
The week of Pastor's arrival..
Power of God was manifesting the Church..
It was awesome.. But there's a price to pay for everything.. I have to really put God as my priority and He spoke more and stronger each day. Wow.. for one side and Boo.. for another.
The week of Soaking..
Soak in God presence. Awesome.. but again have to pay the price for that anointing and God began to tell me what to expect for the week ahead. Tough and very depressing walk of faith. I became very depressed. Emotions raging like never before.
The week of Committment..
I had to forego, the chance to spend more time with friends.. I had to do what God wanted me to accomplish.. I wanted Him so much that I risked all my best bet.. it was fruitful, but I was miserable. That's the feeling of 'follow me and carry the cross.'
The week of CNY..
Rubbish week.. I got no idea what I did for that week. I think I did master to fold a box for good.
The week of Part I: Confusion..
Limited time to accomplish unlimited wants.. I wanted to do God's stuff, wanted hang out with friends and have to comply to help my parents with the family business. Bleah.. distorted soul. So much to do, with 24 hours on my hand.. Slept for 2 hours everyday. Not to forget school work.
The days of Chingay..
I met Lau Po (wife), which by the way.. I dunno her name still. Ha! I met other awesome people. Both from SRJC and outside. People from 2.8 and some strangers who I had to moviate.. Haha.. loads of fun and laughter.. :) I had pinkiness hair on the actual day. I had trouble deciding who to follow - my OG or my predominately cedar friends.. so how many people have such problem? ME! haha..
The week of Part II: fustration..
Things were catching up with me.. History project and all the HW. The uncertain releasing of 'O' level results.. that was the week, I tasted almond jelly with the cedarians.. right? I think so... ha! I was late for RocMoc training.. and also the roadrace as well ?? I think..
The week of Joy and Sorrow..
Got fairly well good grades.. The headache of JAE. The condemned week with the Singpass not working and got so stress up with everything. So how many people got the chance of getting a spoilt Singpass for like 5 times and went to the CPF building twices.
The week of Part III: Emotional breakdown..
For no reason.. and with some reasons.. I broke down and wept. Mum's against me in all my doing. bla bla bla.. To sum up - a lousy week den.
The week of Benny Hinn..
The worse of all the week. But I was healed by J-E-S-U-S, the man behind Benny Hinn. Awesome right!!! Weifen! would surely agree to it. Den I got a free ride home from her kind daddy who proposed to drive me home.. ha! I also went to Sentosa with my 1A04 buddies to get wet. Ha!
The Sunday of Understanding..
That's today.. All are made clear and I'm fine with even another lousier week to come. I will embrace it with love and hope that I can survive it.
So...
My life isn't that bad after all..
Since almost everyday, I made new friends.
Whether in school or outside..
So my life ROXS after all..
I so preceived it.
God Roxs after all.. He made me though. Ha!
I luv my life.. Zhi Han's life.
